It only takes a second

It only takes a second

I’m about to tell you something that happened on saturday which almost shook our whole world. We lost Harper.

Ok, so we didn’t lose her in the sense we were out and about. We were at home, she had just returned from my dads and whilst we were sorting everything out, she was just hanging at the door with the dog.

This is something she does quite often so it’s not something we were alarmed by because up until Saturday she was scared of the step we have leading up to our front door.

She often asks us to carry her out or hold her hand to get down the step, she has NEVER tried to get out by herself.

Anyway ย she was by the door, I was pottering around, my dad was in direct eye view of her with Adam sitting on the sofa.

Everything was fine until my dad received a phone call. In that second my normally shy and scared child did what she has never done before.

She saw her chance and she took it.

I noticed that it was quiet. Parents will know silence and toddlers, whilst it’s something you crave its very suspicious when it actually happens.

My dad looked at the door and noticed she wasn’t there. We checked the rooms because she’s been known to snuggle in our bed but they were empty.

My heart started pounding through my chest I suddenly felt very animalistic, I just ran straight through the door over the step. Where on earth was my baby?!

My initial reaction was to turn right out of our front door and run towards the gates that lead to our flat. They were wide open.

Fuck.

We live in a cul-de-sac but it leads on to a very busy main road. She was nowhere to be seen. I sent my dad out to continue looking but for some reason I found myself turning back round to go find Adam but there was something telling me to give the garden one more look.

There she was, we found her at the bottom of our garden eating our neighbours strawberries.

She was literally like a pig in shit, munching away on the strawberries that we don’t let her eat. Simply because they aren’t ours.

I’ve always been so on the ball with her when we are out, I don’t let her out of my sight. When we’re at home I always run round and check the gates are shut when we’re in the garden.

I guess I took her shyness and it lulled me into a false sense of security. I felt like because she has never done something before she wasn’t going to start now.

It’s so easy to judge another parent based on something you’ve read or seen and lets face it at some point in our lives we will have judged someone based on something they have done.

I learnt Saturday how it literally only takes a second. One second for your whole perspective on life to change. It takes one second from your child to make a dash.

It took one second from my child to go from shy to brave.

 

I’m going to finish my post on a happy note. Once the tears went away we cuddled and on Sunday we headed to the beach for a family day. Where she showed that actually she is quite brave and I underestimated her.

 

Kerry xx

Mother and daughter playing in the sea.

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2 Comments

  1. June 12, 2018 / 3:13 pm

    OMG Kerry that mustโ€™ve been terrifying ๐Ÿ™ˆ. I actually started panicking reading that ๐Ÿ˜‚๐Ÿ™ˆ. The thought of losing one of the boys scares me shitless! Iโ€™m so glad you found her okay but also Iโ€™m kinda proud of her for being brave enough to go in the first place ๐Ÿ˜‚ especially after your post about how shy she is! Xx

    • June 12, 2018 / 3:24 pm

      It was awful! But finding her eating strawberries made it feel a bit better, oh no Iโ€™m sorry! ๐Ÿ™ˆ I now canโ€™t let her out of my sight even more haha! Thatโ€™s it Iโ€™m like YOU SHOULDNT OF DONE THAT but look how brave you are ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ™ˆ xx

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